Not smoking makes me cry
I don't believe in god anymore, I don't like the taste of donuts anymore. Soon I won't like Tim's coffee if I do now. Its been so long since I've had it.
I was never a nice person, but now I'm comletely evil. No wonder no one wants to talk to me. At least I can work away from everyone now. Stuck in my room with my music. I can here them but they can't hear me, cause I'm not talking to anyone because I am a total witch that no one wants to talk to.
If I think about crying my eyes well up. I am mean to my stupid family and I think suicidal thoughts even when I'm happy. This is just so stupid. My mouth waters whenever I think of a stupid cigarette.
And everyone will hate me if I start again even though I'll be a nicer person who likes donuts again and believes in god. Oh, but I'll be broke.
I hate this so much and it will never, ever end.